Let’s get real for a minute, like really real, no one likes a skinny girl but everyone wants to be her. She’s the one that eats anything and everything she wants and never gains a pound. She tries on an article of clothing and everything always looks runway ready on her. “Oh your life is so easy ,you are so thin.” “What do you weight, 90 pounds soaking wet?”
You couldn’t be more WRONG!!!!
In today’s day in age obesity is a real issue especially in the United States. Everyone starts their New Year off with a diet and exercise plan trying to lose weight and look their best. I get it I really do and all of the power to you in your goals but what about the skinny girl. The one you think has it soooooo easy. Ever stop to think that maybe there is a reason she’s so thin? Did it ever cross your mind maybe she doesn’t want to be that skinny and that she envies the fact that you have more meat on your bones than she does?
I am 5 ¼ ft tall (must make sure I get that quarter of an inch, every inch counts), all but 30 years old and normally weight 98 pounds. And, well, at a recent doctor appointment I weighed in at 90 pounds. My heart literally sank and tears immediately began to fall. See in my circumstance weight gain is extremely difficult for me. Even though I am THAT girl who eats whatever she wants whenever she wants and never gain a pound but that’s just it I never gain a pound.
Each of my pregnancies it was a daily struggle to get in as many calories as possible to gain weight for the baby. My first pregnancy I gained a whopping 7 pounds. My last pregnancy I hit my goal of gaining 15 pounds. Many things in life do come easy for me but weight is not one of them.
Today I am being completely transparent here, girls, those looks you give me when I’m at the beach in my bikini, those looks of “I wish I was as skinny as she is” or “wow she must be anorexic”, I see them. And of course the million questions at the doctor’s office, “do you make yourself sick after you eat” and “does eating make you feel bad about yourself.” I’ve heard it all.
People: I LOVE FOOD!
All food: pastries, pastas, steak, and all things green and leafy. And I like the food to stay in my body and not come out for revenge.
Oh and let’s just focus on clothes shopping.
Can we just pause for a moment and think about a 30 year old shopping for her own clothing in the little girl’s department. We all know what I’m talking about the rainbows, glitter, unicorns and cheezy sayings. Not for me. Then let’s go to the juniors department and you end up drowning in anything I attempt to try on. Which let me just say gets very frustrating very quickly.
I don’t say all of this for pity or to complain that my life is so terrible, it’s not. I love my life. My life is blessed to not have an issue with obesity and to be able to eat whatever I want when I want. I know I am also blessed there this is nothing medically wrong with me that is causing the weight loss. It’s just how God has made my body and my ever so fast metabolism. I say all of this because obese or thin, everyone is beautiful and everyone has their struggles. So before you make a “skinny joke” think again because just like a “fat joke” it may hurt just as bad.
As for me, I am going on a diet 😉 a weight gaining diet. My goal is by April 1st I will hit 100 pounds. High calories are on the menu for this skinny-mini. Follow me on my weight gaining journey!